I will talk a little more about this later in the post but right now I would like to turn your attention to an amazing man and father, my step dad Paul. He has been there for my brother and I through everything and has never treated us like we weren't his own blood. As far as I am concerned he is my Dad. He is the one who taught me how to ride a bike, snow ski, wake board, and never missed ONE of my dance recitals or drill team competitions when I was a kid. He always has the best advice for every situation and has taught me how to have a positive outlook on life. I couldn't imagine my life with out this wonderful man and I thank God for letting him into my Mom's life. He is a wonderful man with so much insight and passion for his family. So I want to say thank you dad for being such a wonderful influence on me. I love you.
|He's the awesome one in the middle :)|
A quick background on my padre real quick: He has had a drug addiction for a very very long time. It has ruined his marriage along with his relationship with his kids, family, and burned many friendships. So many people have given up on him that I feel like I am the only one who can keep that little bit of hope lit in his heart that he can and will get better. I haven't been able to get through to him about how bad his drug addiction is until this last Saturday. I was shocked when he said to me. "I need help. I thought I could do this on my own but I can't. I need treatment or something to help me get rid of my addictions." It was honestly a relief to hear this from one of the most prideful and stubborn men I have ever known.
I wanted to word vomit all of the options I know of that could help him and how long the treatment would be but I didn't want to scare this long hoped for thought away. Instead I supported him and told him how proud I was that he sees this. I told him I am here for him and if he needed help finding places or options that I would be more than happy to help him out. I know you are supposed to give your fathers gifts on Fathers day but I feel like this was my fathers gift to me and it seemed more than fitting in regards to our past. I love this man and I want more than anything for him to get better.
|Sorry, this is the only picture I have of us so I'm uploading it agian.|
I love both my dads very much, in very different ways. I have unconditional love for them both but have a childs love for my step dad and a caretakers love for my real dad. They both have taught me many things whether it's leading by example or showing me what not to do. I have my real dad to thank for never touching drugs, and I have my step dad to thank for stepping up and being that father figure I needed as a child and even now as an adult. I wonder if that's why they are called step dads??